This is a personal story of multiple pregnancy losses, navigating heartbreak, a year of infertility and the power of community through life after loss.

In May of 2023 we conceived first time, not expecting anything and I discovered I was pregnant the day before our flight to our honeymoon which just couldn’t have been more textbook perfect.

I wanted to show him the positive so we went to some pharmacies….but none of them came back positive.

I told my husband on our first full day while we were on the beach but the test had run out of battery. I wanted to show him the positive so we went to some pharmacies over the next few days but none of them came back positive. A few nights later I woke up in the night in excruciating pain with lots of blood and that was that. G&T on the beach was consumed and we enjoyed the rest of our holiday while trying to process what happened.

Some time passed and it became clear we really wanted this and within 4 months, another positive.

at 9 weeks I was told the baby hadn’t grown since about 7.5 weeks

This time I was cautious of what could happen but I looked after myself, continued training at the gym and getting excited. I booked in an early scan as there was no way I could wait until 12 weeks so at 9 weeks I was told the baby hadn’t grown since about 7.5 weeks. This was as crushing as you’d expect except what followed felt almost worse.

3 weeks after finding out, and 5 since baby stopped growing, I was able to take meds at home.

My body wasn’t letting go and the NHS wanted a scan, then another scan to confirm, and then to wait before actioning anything in case it happened naturally. So, about 3 weeks after finding out, and 5 since baby stopped growing, I was able to take meds at home. These worked, which after hearing stories from others I was grateful for, but the impact this whole experience caused was colossal.

I couldn’t have done it without the TWGGEF Community

These losses plus a following year of unexplained infertility and lots of non-answers from tests, left bitter and confused tastes in our mouths but equally, opened our eyes to this new world, navigating these feelings, the healthcare system and resonating with all the unfortunate members of this girl gang.

I couldn’t have done it without you Bex & Laura and the TWGGEF Community! And will continue to need you no doubt… Thank you for everything.